I'm typing this on my nintendo DS. this is going to make reading this site so much easier! Also, I'm back around LJ again. Hi to anyone who knows me who's still around.

Anone want to talk Sonic or DC comics?

it's monday, i'm here with a broken wrist trying to two hand type to some degree

but it kinda hurts to do that. anyway, this week i get the stapes in my arm removed and re-casted. i start going to physio soon too. thursday the money i got fom dad's life insurance becomes usable, the back holds my checks for 5-6 business days, my next account won't be with CIBC. Then the money starts to get drained a little. i just hope i get what i need out of it before it's gone.

speaking of what i need, is anyone reading this in edmonton and want a couple nice people dropping in long enough for us to find our own place?

i got hired at subway for nightshift, i'vce worked 2 shifts and like it. unfortunatly on my way bicycling home from work the other day, i fell off and boke my left wrist and then some. i also got a concussion, luckally i had my helmet on, it's in the garbage now along with my sunglasses. i now have metal inside my left arm and will for the rest of this life. i'm typing this entry one-handedly. wednesday i go back to the hospiutal to see my surgeon and get my bandages exchanged for a cast, and i'll have to wear that for 5 weeks. then i'll need physical theripy they say. it really fucking hurt, and it still hurts. i'm helpless in most things for a while now, good thing i have robin and we live together.

well that's about as much one-handed typing i can take, plus it's supper time

robin keeps having bouts of depression and panic. i don't know if he's depressed all the time or if it comes and goes. he seems to think it never goes away. some days are much worse than others though. i wish we had more money coming in. if we could keep the bills and food budget covered i think we'd be doing better. but robin's still trying to get over things that happened in the past, and i don't have any idea how i can help him. he says he doesn't feel it from me when i tell him i love him. but i do love him. i wish he'd at least totally believe that. he wants to move out of NS asap and start our lives over in a totally new place. i want to too, but my dad jsut died and i have a house in hantsport to help clear out. i at least have to get my belongings out before i leave. the house needs to be sold to cover dad's debts. I can't leave this palce until my affaird in it are concluded. and they aren't quite yet. almost.

that is all

it's very depressing. i feel like crying. maybe not so much depressing as just plain sad. i guess i feel sorry for myself. that's a step up though, i guess. It would have been nice to have freinds (i mean this literally, I had no freinds save one or two that i hardly ever talked to and came and went out of my life quickly, and there were many years where I couldn't talk to anyone at all), parents, to not be abused, to have been properly educated and no have had to educate myself with real facts, not the 'facts' (or "trusthiness") that my school fed me. It would have been nice to have had just one teacher that really cared about my welfare. It would have been nice to have had books to learn from, instead of only TV.

but most of all, i would have been nice to have freinds. that definatly belongs that the top of that list. thinking about my childhood is one thing, but when I actually remember what it was like i start to cry. I was alone all the time, unless I was getting teased or hit or yelled at. There were a couple years when we weren't living in hantsport where I had a safe school to go to, but that was grades 2 and 3. It's no wonder I'm a high school drop out.

if you're thinking of having kids, but your relationship with your significant other is strained, don't have kids. If you have kids and are divorced and want to re-marry, remember, your new spouce is in no way a replacment for your ex, and they are NOT i repeat NOT a parent to your child or children. Also keep in mind, please keep in mind, your kids are more improtant that you!!!!!! If you can't accept that, then you were never ready to be a parent in the first place. please, don't let any of the things that happened to me happen to any one else....i beg you

Is being a vampire defined by feeding or by hunger? I believe it's the hunger that defines us, not the feeding. Anyone can feed off another. And that feeding can be called vampiric, but vampiricly feeding does not make one a vampire. It's the need to feed that does. The thirst.



Why is it human vampires are so often 'off' when they give advice to 'kin vampires? Are umans really that differnet from us? I'm starting to think they are far more differnet than I ever imagined

what do you think?

out cat Ander loves playing a game we call the couch monster, when we stick things (sometimes our hands sometimes a plastic wrapper or a towl) out between the back cushions of the couch and he attacks them, sometimes they attack him. He was trying to get a game of this going last night so I decided to show him where the couch monster lives. So I parted the cushion and springs enough for him to take a look inside. Of course he just had to explore. Now we have to be careful to know where the cat is before we sit on that side of the couch, just in case



I got Sonic the Hedgehog the complete series DVD today in the mail from Shawn. Thank you so much! I love this show as you know if you know me most likely. And also this week I'm finishing up downloading Extreme Ghostbusters! Yay